Do you remember where you started? First time you did something? How you looked and so on?
We humans forget so fast to protect ourselves, it’s in our nature. I started working out by joining Daniel to the gym and ate pizza afterwards as I felt proud of myself and this was around 2010-2012. Then I was sick for a few years, got treatments at the hospital 3times a week and ate a ton of medicine and cortisone and couldn’t sleep. So I ate a lot of sugar to trying stay a wake during the day in pain. So I gained a lot of weight and that didn’t make me feel any better and I was super uncomfortable and so tired from my meds to be at the gym.
Then I came to a breaking point, changed hospital and doctor, started to train and changed my food and started to lose weight and felt better. I got better and I changed my meds so I ate less and still got better. But it never got a away all of it. Then we moved to San Francisco and I had more time and gym in the building so I started to workout a lot, both cardio and circle training and I started to loose even more weight and I still thought I was fat when I wore size 34 or XS and I’m 177cm tall.
I wanted to learn more so I listen to Bucci Radio and they talked much about Bikini Fitness and binge eating and it took all my focus. I started to look at a lot of Bikini competitions in the US and talked to some people that had knowledge and realized that I needed to gain muscles if I would try it out.
Now I see how much this sport helped me with my head, to realize that I wasn’t fat and to love my body. It was so nice my last bulk to not feel fat it was the opposite, I loved my body during my bulk and I never thought I would do that. I didn’t count calories on every little thing anymore, I got back my social life and my body felt good and full of energy and I could accomplish things I never thought I would. To build and grow a strong mind is super important and I’m now grateful for being on my second competition diet without food issues.
The second best is that I’m not sick anymore and need to eat all the strong medicines, If I eat clean most time and low amount of white sugar I stay good and then also my IBS is no problem.
It took me a few years to find a balance in my life, to much or to less is not good. The middle is perfect, for me and that suits my life the best!
Find whats best for you 😀
From sick to feeling fat to super slim and finally finding a healthy life style!